12-19-2016, 07:39 PM
I am new to this but I thought the name of the forum was something that would help me reach out to see if there are any other dads feeling the same way.
I left home around 8 years ago now - my eldest son was 13 at the time and my daughter 6.
I love them both equally of course but there has always been something extra with my eldest.
I have had the usual "every other weekend" contact but it is never enough.
My eldest has now gone off to Uni - against all the odds but he did it! He is having the time of his life and nothing makes me happier.
But - I miss him. I missed out. I missed all that time when I am sure he missed me. We were close and always will be.
I feel a lot of pain - I try to think about something else and know I need to do that. But it creeps up. It creeps up when I think I have put it away. It always creeps up and hangs around. The guilt and feelings of missing him now and knowing I missed out on time I will never get back.
Anyone else have this?
I left home around 8 years ago now - my eldest son was 13 at the time and my daughter 6.
I love them both equally of course but there has always been something extra with my eldest.
I have had the usual "every other weekend" contact but it is never enough.
My eldest has now gone off to Uni - against all the odds but he did it! He is having the time of his life and nothing makes me happier.
But - I miss him. I missed out. I missed all that time when I am sure he missed me. We were close and always will be.
I feel a lot of pain - I try to think about something else and know I need to do that. But it creeps up. It creeps up when I think I have put it away. It always creeps up and hangs around. The guilt and feelings of missing him now and knowing I missed out on time I will never get back.
Anyone else have this?